Pennywise lost a penny or two

Pennywise lost a penny or two

Pennywise we all know him as the clown from IT. You know that scary movie where a clown tries to manifest your fears. For example imagine you being afraid of bees. Pennywise would make an entire swarm of bees bee hind you. To sting you at places bee yond to say. It could end up with you being killed by a bee or worse. You ending up with a relationship with a honey bee. Okay okay only one more joke and then I’ll buzz off the bee jokes. Wouldn't IT bee funny to see a beeyonce on a stage say to bee or not to bee. That queen B is the question indeed.

As you could see I tried to bee funny.  I was acting like a clown. You get it Pennywise and me being a clown. That's what this article is all about. The reason why a person being a child or a grown up acts like a clown is because they want to be accepted. Accepted into a group. Accepted with a feeling that he or she is a part of something and that they are wanted in a group.

In a sentence ‘being a clown’ never had a positive meaning. It is usually used to describe a person in a group who acts in a dysfunctional way. The persons way of acting disturbs the growth of a group. No wonder why people don't like clowns. They are scary as hell and never attribute to the growth of a person or group.

But i am not here to bash it or to shun IT back to hell. I want to explain the reason why a person acts like a clown. I used to be, or some people may still categorize me, as a clown but in a sense of way i acted a lot like a clown. I acted that way because I wanted to be accepted. I have felt neglect and rejection

I remember the day as if it was yesterday. It was during the time that i was forced to go to primary school. There was a deaf woman who came with her interpreter to give us some lecture about being deaf and we as young hormonal kids were astonished that such people exist . But me being a goofy goofer i asked an inappropriate question. I don’t know what I asked but I do know I got scolded for embarrassing the entire school's image. In my mind all I did was trying to be funny. Trying to be accepted by my friends. Trying to stand out and to get some kind of attention. Instead I got detention. It is still a kind of attention but the wrong one.

I have noticed that once a person starts acting like a clown there is a reason behind it. I saw that those people carry a lot of scares in their body without them even knowing it. In my case all I wanted was to feel accepted and wanted.

I'm telling you this for a reason. I don't need any empathy for my situation for i have learned to enjoy the little attention that I get. Now I use humor to break the ice of shame and make a person feel at home. If you are reading this and you are in a profession where you work with kids or people in general. Pay attention to the one who is acting like a clown. Scolded him for his bad behavior but show him in a way that he does not need to act like that to get attention. Most importantly make him feel accepted and a part of group. That can be the biggest game changer for him.

Thank you for reading.

Kind regards,
Yours only